I’m marking summer by kid camp, for sure, as mothers of
littles do. First year all three of mine are old enough to go to Junior
Lifeguard Camp and adrenaline-crazed enough to attend back-to-back sessions!
Out they trundle, reeking of sunscreen under the Coronado June gloom mist. Back they come under blue skies to litter every inch of the house with sand,
sprawling their sun blonde limbs across the living room rug. Fridge door opens and closes like a windmill, shelves emptying faster than we can replenish them. Even the broccoli!
We are still celebrating my first poetry book’s release,
November Butterfly (Saddle Road Press, November 2014) so I’m reading in Santa
Fe at Garcia Books in August with poet friends Barbara Rockman and Robyn Hunt. Here’s a
facebook page for the event: Facing Forward, Looking Back: Poetry Reading. Then I’m off to attend A Room of Her Own Foundation’s
Summer 2015 retreat at Ghost Ranch as the Marg Chandler Fellow (an honor).
Here’s a poem for you from the new poetry manuscript I’m
writing based on an Illinois commune I lived on during my childhood. I wrote “Cooking
Class” when Tweetspeak Poetry put out a call for poems on the theme of blue
jeans back in April. At the mercy of universal bad timing usually reserved for
the opening of car doors (into those of adjacent cars), I had just sent my only
blue jean poem into circulation.
Tweetspeak (via Twitter) introduced me to a writer named Amy
Billone; thanks to some mutual “egging” on of one another, we both managed to
draft poems you’ll find in Tweetspeak’s e-book, Casual: a little book of jeans poems and photos (available for free
during National Poetry Month, 2016, or if you want a copy sooner, you can
become a Tweetspeak supporter at the $15 level, details for the e-book Casual here).
The book is edited by L.L. Barkat, cover image by Susan Etole.
Cooking
Class, Illinois, Mid 70s
Along
her immaculate counter: silo
of
red-handled sifter, bright order
of
silver spoons, lemon bales of butter
softening
in late winter light. In cupboards
her
husband the carpenter built, bars
of
Baker’s Chocolate, dried figs, quartered
apricots
and Mason Jars of brined harvest.
A
good cook puts up her hair, wears
apron,
stores flour in freezer to keep
Boll
Weevils out, uses shells of her egg
as
a tool to separate yolk from white.
She
also wears dresses, I learned,
when
for donning jeans, she informed me
she
no longer wished me to babysit. She cited,
over
the phone to my mother, the effect
it
might have on her son, the kind of wife
he
might choose, the man he’d become
as
I chased him on my hands and knees round
living
room’s glass table she refused to move
when
he was born. He’d learn, she’d said, he’d learn
soon
enough, where he stopped and she began.
I love that writing prompts have the power to take us into
the labyrinth of memories. You never know which one will light up. Try it—just
write “blue jeans” across the top of a blank page—and let me know what happens.
Reflecting back on the situation of the poem--50s values
prevailing in the 70s--I can see that I emerged relatively unscathed emotionally from
being fired for wearing jeans. True, I loved the little boy and the babysitter
snacks rated. I’d lose out on some pocket change.
But there was a hidden gift, a form of ferocious love us
firstborns covet. My mother slammed down the phone and raged to my father in
the next room while my body tingled with collateral adrenaline. Seconds later she stormed in and said, “You are not going back there. Ever. No one tells my girl
she has to wear a skirt.” One of her
finest Mother Bear moments.
Related Links:
I solicited a beautiful post by Amy Billone at Mother Writer
Mentor about the writing of her blue jeans Haiku for her son, My Baby Boy’s Jeans.
All the photos in the post are by my poetry movie collaborator Robyn Beattie.
2 comments:
What a gorgeous poem! Buttery and rich! And surprising us by changing, gathering speed to that knockout last line. How you captured her and the mindset still alive -- not only in that era, but with different literal details, in our own! (It's the woman's fault, always.) And cheering for your mother bear!
Thanks so much Ruth, for the love. Surfing faultlines with a poet's eye...and now as a mother, with mother hindsight. Grateful as always for the lessons.
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